1. |
Easy Friend (Demo)
03:27
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i want the real thing
where I can hold your eyes and kill the fantasy
but you're broken like me
and we still gotta live after the happy ending
reaching through the vacuum of the criss-cross starlit sky
well you know what i need
to feel the ground settled beneath my feet
but it's alright
we can keep our eyes focused on the bleak and the bright
i'm still not sure what will ease your doubts
but i wouldn't hate it if we worked things out
i'm not an easy friend but you can't wear me down
i wish you were here
watching the water get higher year after year
but you can never say yes
without convincing yourself that you don't deserve it
i miss california and how it made me feel
finally letting myself believe that maybe this time it's real
dreaming of a future with fences down
and a few girlfriends playing house
chickens and children running around
looking after each other
building better together
well you know where i'll be
you can find me at the bottom of everything
but it's alright
i don't need to know the next time you'll get me high
don't know where i'll sleep when we're drowned in the waves
but i wouldn't hate it if you screamed my name
i'm not an easy friend but i can keep you up late
well you know what i mean
when i say i want you at the center of everything
but it's alright
i don't need to be the one alone with you every night
i've spent most of my life in a duet
but i wouldn't hate it if she shared the bed
i'm not an easy friend but we could make a good set
i'm not an easy one but you're still my best friend
i'm not an easy one
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2. |
Simone (Demo)
03:28
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you fuck me up like a horoscope
when you want to be sincere
you try so hard to be clever
that you're never clear
i'd bottom for you if you asked me to
but i'm dancing alone in the living room
and you're face down on the floor crying
that you wish you weren't queer
so i'll put my best face forward
but you know what a wreck i can be
i'm always getting in over my head
but never saying what i need
so i'll smile for the timeline and stare at ceilings alone
but i'm still not sure what to tell simone
you tear me down like the tower card
when you ask me to get you high
i try so hard to fix things
that i'm never fine
you say can't really love me cause you hate yourself
you're too tired and broken to crawl up from hell
and now i'm texting into a black hole
that i'll never understand your mind
you put on your deepest scowl
but i know how kind you can be
a pillow princess flat on your back
afraid of what your weakness means
so i'll take your paintings off the wall block you from my phone
but i'm still not sure what to tell simone
dressing down won't save you from the pain of being seen
hiding yourself in a sea of cis machines
you can find a wife who'll carry, be the mother of your dreams
but to them you'll always be a faggot just like me
you can't take anything else from me
cause i've got nothing left but sympathy, pity
and the restless lonely energy of the freedom you gave me
i'll put my best face forward
but you know what a mess i can be
i'm always getting in over my head
but never saying what i need
so i'll throw away this dead bouquet and bury it in my bones
but i'm still not sure what to tell simone
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3. |
Bad News (Demo)
03:06
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the wind cuts through the heat
and you've given me the good seat
to see if we can work things out while i try on a new name
cause every time you text i keep coming around
but every time we talk you keep closing your mouth
i'm tired of trying new fixes and feeling the same
basking in the glow of the meaning i've found
staring at the ceiling overthinking out loud
and running my brain through the fire and the fury
of the winter we built all the walls coming down
moving on and burying the past in our bodies
'cause you already know all the worst things about me
we can stay in one place to keep things from changing
but it's all brand new it's all bad news
and i don't want to risk losing you
but a little growing apart will do us some good
staring at the sun coming off the bridge
while i'm holding my breath on the balcony's edge
cause i don't feel the need to fill up space
and i don't want to spoil the mood
but these vertigo high rise spins got me dizzy
while i'm tearin down the moon that chased you out of the city
and cutting my hand on the rusted remains
of the summer we built out of metal and memory
holding on to anything that keeps us together
but nothing's gonna change if we wait out the weather
we can learn to let go after you're feeling better
but it's all too much it's all too much
this can't end until i start
to shed my skin, remake my brain and unfuck my heart
it's all too much, it's all too much, it's all too much, it's all too much
it's all too much, it's all too much, it's all too much, it's all too much
you've changed, i've changed
everything's changing
it's all brand new, it's all bad news
this can't end until i start
to shed my skin, remake my brain and unfuck my heart
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4. |
Real Good Place (Fuzzy)
03:13
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put my future on the line
invested too much time
woke up to find a note
that said you can’t live in the past
i'm getting used to being lonely
working towards something steady
building a new life
giving myself a second chance
it's too bad I heard your name
cause lately i've been in a real good place
spent fifteen days in bed
couldn't push the downpour from my head
but the weather doesn't matter
if you never leave the house
now i'm unburdening my mind
under an unfamiliar sky
i don't smile like i used to
but i've learned to laugh out loud
it's too bad I saw your face
cause lately i've been in a real good place
lately i've been in a real good place
I heard you found another
Endless gem for you to mine
Now i’ve cleared the rocks away
The sunlight’s shown its face
I’m starting to get better
I’m finally feeling fine
i swore i wouldn't be a wreck
when i finally got your text
you ask for coffee
now that we've both had time to evolve
swear that neither one's to blame
ask how i'm getting by these days
you say you want the truth
but you just want to be absolved
i don't need you to explain
cause lately i've been in a real good place
it's too bad you're still the same
cause lately i've been in a real good place
lately i've been in a real good place
lately i've been in a real good place
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