1. |
Simone (Remastered)
03:22
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you fuck me up like a horoscope
when you want to be sincere
you try so hard to be clever
that you're never clear
i'd bottom for you if you asked me to
but i'm dancing alone in the living room
and you're face down on the floor crying
that you wish you weren't queer
so i'll put my best face forward
but you know what a wreck i can be
i'm always getting in over my head
but never saying what i need
so i'll smile for the timeline and stare at ceilings alone
but i'm still not sure what to tell simone
you tear me down like an old lighthouse
when you ask me to get you high
i try so hard to fix things
that i'm never fine
you say can't really love me cause you hate yourself
you're too tired and broken to crawl up from hell
and now i'm texting into a black hole
that i'll never understand your mind
you put on your deepest scowl
but i know how kind you can be
a pillow princess flat on your back
afraid of what your weakness means
so i'll take your paintings off the wall block you from my phone
but i'm still not sure what to tell simone
dressing down won't save you from the pain of being seen
hiding yourself in a sea of cis machines
you can find a wife who'll carry, be the mother of your dreams
but to them you'll always be a faggot just like me
you can't take anything else from me
cause i've got nothing left but sympathy, pity
and the restless lonely energy of the freedom you gave me
i'll put my best face forward
but you know what a mess i can be
i'm always getting in over my head
but never saying what i need
so i'll throw away this dead bouquet and bury it in my bones
but i'm still not sure what to tell simone
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2. |
Easy Friend (Remastered)
03:12
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i want the real thing
where I can hold your eyes and kill the fantasy
but you're broken like me
and we still gotta live after the happy ending
reaching through the vacuum of the criss-cross starlit sky
well you know what i need
to feel the ground settled beneath my feet
but it's alright
we can keep our eyes focused on the bleak and the bright
i'm still not sure what will ease your doubts
but i wouldn't hate it if we worked things out
i'm not an easy friend but you can't wear me down
i wish you were here
watching the water get higher year after year
but you can never say yes
without convincing yourself that you don't deserve it
i miss california and how it made me feel
finally letting myself believe that maybe this time it's real
dreaming of a future with fences down
and a few girlfriends playing house
chickens and children running around
looking after each other
building better together
well you know where i'll be
you can find me at the bottom of everything
but it's alright
i don't need to know the next time you'll get me high
don't know where i'll sleep when we're drowned in the waves
but i wouldn't hate it if you screamed my name
i'm not an easy friend but i can keep you up late
well you know what i mean
when i say i want you at the center of everything
but it's alright
i don't need to be alone with you every night
i've spent most of my life in a duet
but i wouldn't hate it if she shared the bed
i'm not an easy friend but we could make a good set
it's not an easy one but you're still my best friend
i'm not an easy one
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3. |
Cat's Song (Remastered)
03:37
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she's the quick one, the sad one, the fun one, the mean one
always telling friends how she wants to die
she never really means it, just takes everything she has to stay alive
wake up, disconnect the feeling, memorize the dots in the ceiling
smoking breakfast out her bedroom window
taking three days to text back, saying sorry i've been a drag
destroying everything she can to get control
she gave it all the money she had to make that settled feeling last
but she don't want consolation, she just needs absolution
she don't want sympathy, just needs her days to be easy
this city is a sinking ship, not big enough for wrecks like us
the future is a burning bridge, not bright enough to light me up
she's the tall one, the smol one, the kind one, the mom one
means well but never says what she means
always asking what's the matter but rarely gets the answer that she needs
she woke up in their apartment, the unsteady ground felt different
ugly crying at the kitchen table
taking three hits to think straight, saying sorry that i'm this way
cutting off everyone she can to feel stable
she gave it all the money she had to make that anchored feeling last
but she don't wants compliments, just needs conclusions
she don't want fantasies, just something close to happy
this city is a sinking ship, not big enough for wrecks like us
the future is a burning bridge, not bright enough to light me up
you were a hurricane, a barricade, romanticized insecticide
and everything i wanted to be
a kind-hearted coward, a clout chasing vampire
and the one that i still see in every dream
i gave you all the money i had to lock my nightmares in the past
you took the good parts and ran but what's the future worth anyway?
i'd probably do it all again
this city is a sinking ship, not big enough for wrecks like us
the future is a burning bridge, not bright enough to light me up
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4. |
Baciami (Remastered)
03:28
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brass pipes screaming drones consumed with dread
with every little detail adding up to the end
throwing my own words back like they’re some revelation
finally spilling the truth and laying it all down at the organ
i never wanted to be some drunk girl crying off her head
a broken basket washed up on the riverbank of your bed
like a child, soul and body, lightness and weight
baciami
the circus vibe funeral dirge bringing us down
with wildflowers fading in the golden hour
my bones are too broke to go through all this again
i'm crawling out of my skin and leaving my body at the organ
and now i'm running my mouth while you stare deadeyed at the wall
but if you'd just said the word i'd come back for more and more
and more and more and more
say it with your whole chest, baciami
when you're ready, baciami
just fucking kiss me
heavy distant silence filling up the car
cause you know i want more than just a fuck in the dark
give me some kind of clue that you even care
a wordless drive to the airport, screaming bright eyes like a prayer
but just because i want you doesn't mean i'll wait around
if there's one thing you taught me it's turning off and checking out
say it with your whole chest, baciami
when you're ready, baciami
just fucking kiss me
i still hope you find a little bit of everything you need
and when you know out what that is i'll still be me
leave it at the organ leave it at the organ leave it at the organ
leave it at the organ leave it at the organ
leave it at the organ leave it at the organ leave it at the organ
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5. |
Everything (Remastered)
03:17
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oh! fortune teller, what's in store for my life?
you’re perfectly prescient and ever so kind
give me all of the reasons you can't be my wife
where do i fit in this perfect design?
you wrote the script, memorized every line
and now you're killing yourself just to prove you're alive
I can carry you to bed, but i won't push you out the door
playing house until the game gets boring
and now you're tearing through the city
you can't blame yourself for trying to be happy
and chasing a life that gives you everything
say sorry, then obsess over every mistake
running away just to stay in the same place
disconnecting my head just to get through the day
the future follows my heels like a ghost
i want to be touched but need to be alone
we're both broken in all of the same ways
come carry me home and leave the light on when you go
fill me up with anything that's golden
cause even if i come up empty, i can't blame myself for trying to be happy
and chasing a life that gives me everything
is it too late for me? am i used up and spent?
i can't give you a baby, but i've still got love left
and i'm too old to chase down fantasies
but when you figure out what you want from me
i'll be three states over and way past apologies
cause we don't belong to who we used to be
i've stared down the edge of the cliff
been swallowed up by the abyss
i’ve held god in my hand
is this all there is?
but i won't let this break me
i can't hate myself for trying to be happy
and building a life that gives me everything
baby i'm ready for something steady
I've been to the brink and I'm never going back
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6. |
New Moon (Remastered)
04:21
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i want to tell you all of my dreams
ask you what every little thing means
find out which ones are really that sweet
life's easier when you're a ghost in my phone
but you're the only real thing i ever touch anymore
proof i'm not as bad as I believe in my bones
came when you called 'cause i hate to be alone
to make mistakes and watch the sun die from another west coast
the gravity of your waves pulling me home
the red sky blinds me as the glow disappears
if we don't do this now it'll be another two years
and if you want her so bad then why are you still here
i don't mind that i'm bound to get hurt
we've been here before and killed ourselves with cures
fucked up in the ways that we want it to be
but give me hell and high water over empty and easy
i could never be everything
but if you let me in we could build something
it's just the shadow of the earth on the new moon between
and you're the starlight breaking cracks into every last part of me
i don't mind
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7. |
Triple Leo (Remastered)
03:39
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i give you everything and you beg for more
you're always sticking around for the encore
but i don't want you around babe, i don't want you around
you want a girl who you never have to see
i want a love that changes me
i don't want you around babe, i don't want you around
but i don't want you around babe, i don't want you around
waking up alone bracing for the come down
digging through the wreckage of last night's breakdown
betting on futures i know aren't real
if there's a chance let's take it
if it's a mistake then let's make it
i hate how good you make me feel
i give you everything and you beg for more
you're always sticking around for the encore
but i don't want you around babe i don't want you around
you want a girl who you never have to see
and i want a love that changes me
but i don't want you around babe i don't want you around
we can keep our heads down like we always do
but i can't be the girl that you need me to
the best you ever seen, the best is yet to come
if you're gonna finally let me in
you better take me as i really am
the best you ever been, the best is yet to come
you tell me that you need me to get by
but when i'm in your bed you meet my eyes
i know it's not me but it feels like shit
cheap words written on water
and i'm the best i have to offer
but even when i feel worthless i know i'm worth this
we can keep our heads down like we always do
but i can't be the girl that you need me to
the best you ever seen, the best is yet to come
if you're gonna finally let me in
you better take me as i really am
the best you ever been, the best is yet to come
dolled up worrying dressed in blue
dance to sad songs in the living room
leaving all of the hard stuff to someone else
the shadow guiding me through the dark
comparing the fire in our charts
and letting the future worry about itself
i give you everything and you beg for more
you're always sticking around for the encore
but i don't want you around babe i don't want you around
you want a girl who you never have to see
i want a love that changes me
but i don't want you around babe i don't want you around
i don't want you around babe i don't want you around
i don't want you around babe i don't want you
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wake me up when it's my turn to drive
the radio cuts through the quiet at night
we both know this is ending, breaking up the bed
but if we just keep talking we can make it to sunrise
the wine's wearing off and the cloud's coming down
all the pitch perfect poison spilling from our mouths
you scream until your voice goes and strip me down my bones
cause you don't have the stomach to say it out loud
that i'm a brick up against the wall
you need a woman who can make you a mom
and my body just reminds you of your pain and regrets
another long mistake on the tip of my tongue
holding me down in the past
but i'm just a broken brain going out of my mind
trying to get my future back
everything's closing in and falling apart
repeat advice that been given but never took to heart
i'm bad at being who i want to be
i'll try to get myself together when i know where to start
if god made me, then explain me
and the frenetic static that surrounds me
if hell wants me, then come claim me
and give me some kind of purpose, some kind of meaning
what kind of world are you saving for?
what kind of death are you working towards?
haunted by lost lives while we fight to survive
the curtains come down while we beg for an encore
there’s plastic in our blood
cameras recording everyone
and the death cult of capital
keeps running running running running
an open casket wake at the edge of the known
a deathly grip hold on the past
but i'm just a broken brain at the end of the world
trying to get my future back
i'm just a broken brain at the end of the world
trying to get my future back
i'm just a broken brain at the end of the world
trying to get my future back
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9. |
Bad News (Remastered)
02:58
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the wind cuts through the heat
and you've given me the good seat
to see if we can work things out while i try on a new name
cause every time you text i keep coming around
but every time we talk you keep closing your mouth
i'm tired of trying new fixes and feeling the same
basking in the glow of the meaning i've found
staring at the ceiling overthinking out loud
and running my brain through the fire and the fury
of the winter we built all the walls coming down
moving on and burying the past in our bodies
'cause you already know all the worst things about me
we can stay in one place to keep things from changing
but it's all brand new it's all bad news
and i don't want to risk losing you
but a little growing apart will do us some good
staring at the sun coming off the bridge
while i'm holding my breath on the balcony's edge
cause i don't feel the need to fill up space
and i don't want to spoil the mood
but these vertigo high rise spins got me dizzy
while i'm tearin down the moon that chased you out of the city
and cutting my hand on the rusted remains
of the summer we built out of metal and memory
holding on to anything that keeps us together
but nothing's gonna change if we wait out the weather
we can learn to let go after you're feeling better
but it's all too much it's all too much
this can't end until i start
to shed my skin, remake my brain and unfuck my heart
it's all too much, it's all too much, it's all too much, it's all too much
it's all too much, it's all too much, it's all too much, it's all too much
you've changed, i've changed
everything's changing
it's all brand new, it's all bad news
this can't end until i start
to shed my skin, remake my brain and unfuck my heart
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10. |
Rose Quartz (Remastered)
03:51
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jet planes going the opposite way
contrails cut the sky, the only trace you left in your wake
get high, just killing some time
the ceiling softens and fades, a steady stream to get through the night
can't let you down if you take nothing from me
i know i'll never be the girl you need
now all that's left is a town split in two
and a cut quartz reminder to love myself as much as you do
it came to me in a dream waking up from surgery
i'm only really as alone as i want to be
from the waterfall to the curtain call, all in all it's been worth it
it's no one's fault but i'm giving up
cause now i know i can't love you enough for the both of us
in your arms i took my armor off
turned my volume up, believed i was enough
but just because we were happy once
don't mean we should get stuck in a life spent wondering
i hope you find someone who can love you better
i know i'm loved cause i feel loved
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